Do you give or take postive energy?

You know something?

There are some people in my world that make me happy and GIVE positive energy.

Marica, Alice, Kat, Di & Shannon, Cathy.........and of course Andrew......you are all stars......& I thank you so much for your support.

And then there are the "energy suckers". You know the type. Would it kill them to smile and say "well done" FFS?!

Well, you know what? I am no longer going to waste my time or energy on this type of person.........

Happy........

Look at this photos. Beautiful. Like me.

See the birds smiling? Like me.

I am a happy girl tonight.

Had a great day at work.

Had some beautiful quality ME TIME this evening.

And best of all I lost 1kg!!

And I think I finally GET that this road is a long highway, but a road I am happy to be on, and a journey I want to take, and I am going inthe right direction, and I am in no rush, and if this journey takes a year or so, it'll be worth it.

Just off to check on my adorable sleeping babies, then away to a contented sleep........

Feeling a bit demoralised....

I just weighed myself at Mum's which was STUPID, as she has old scales that are really unclear, but it looks like I have not lost anything at all this fortnight. I wish I hadn't hopped on the bloody things now as I feel pissed off.

I then came home and measured myself and despite being on the effing exercise bike for at least 30 mins each day, it doesn't look like I have lost any cm's either?? WTF is going on??

I know I have been steadily losing at least 0.5kg a week, but in the big scheme of things that just feels like it is going to take FOREVER.

But then again, if I carry on doing that, I suppose it is 25kg by the end of the year lost??

I am going to try and find someone who can photo shop me a photo of myself and take 25kg off, to see what that looks like!

• I must drink more water


• I must have my 2 shakes a day, with psyllium


• I must stop picking


• I must start listening to my hypnotherapy more often


• I must do my exercise bike daily


• I must experiment with the fit ball!

Onwards and upwards I guess.....

MERDE!

I just made the kids french toast.......with fresh bread & grated parmesan........for brunch.........and I had got up late and missed brekky..........so ended up having 2 fried slices myself..........

Pissed off with myself.

Swiss Ball...........

Nope, not cheese....but one of these:

I have ordered one from Ebay.

I need to address my middle bits!

Generally I never lose any weight from my boobs....they are average-ish sized and never seem to change regardless of my body weight. This doesn't bother me. So, the bit that I am thinking that will need the most work is the middle region.......abs, baby belly, hips and bum.

I asked the girls on BellyBelly what they thought:

http://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums/showthread.php?t=59867

Burlesque is REALLY not my thing, so the Swiss Ball it is.

I have also orfered a DVD to go with it, so we shall see how I go with that!

I figure I loved the fit ball when I was in labour, so this may be a "match" for me......

Well........make or break....

I actually ended up losing 1.1kg on the scales.

Relief, total relief.

And I guess from there I realised I have a choice. Either give up now or forge on.

And I spoke to Tony a lot about this fork in the road and got some issues clear in my mind, and I am going to go for it.

That said, I ate a bag of chippies in the car on the way to a hair appointment as I was so hungry and running so late!

But as we know, I can chose to beat myself up about that or simply move on.

So I will weigh in again in a fortnight, and for the next 2 weeks I am determined to not bend the rules.

The lady in our local Post Office has lost a shed load of weight (about 38kg I think?) and she was telling me that some months she only lost 1kg but refused to get demoralised about it, as she figured "Even if I only lose 1kg a month, in a years time, I will still be 12kg LESS than I was"

Ummmmm, good point babe!

Fark........

I feel like I am falling.........off the rails...........

I have not gone out and totally fallen off the wagon.....just some backsliding here and there.

But I know in my heart of hearts I have not stuck to the plan anything like as well as I need to, so I feel scared.

Maybe it is a common thing to feel a bit over it all 6 weeks in? I am feeling like I could just give up.......but at the same time I am determined not to.

I am going to weigh in on tomorrow, and then get tough on myself/be kind to myself, whichever way you look at it.

It's almost like all my good habits that I had begun to develop.....it's like the novelty has worn off?

Although I have still cycled every single day regardless. The food thing......a bit more cheating has crept in.......and it is tempting to beat myself up about it.

All I can do, I guess, is weigh in tomorrow, start this next fortnight off with fresh determination, and take it each day at a time?

I am dreading the weigh in. FFS, what I have have put on weight???

I have not been eating any junk as such......and certainly I have kept up the exercise......I am hoping that is enough??

I just want to get back on track, I really do......

The Potato Shaped Hole......

.......in my tummy that craves a carbohydrate........is getting more demanding!

BUT, mushrooms feel like they may be a good replacement? In am not sure if that is nutritionally accurate, or just my imagination, but for the sake of this diet of mine, I am going to investigate further!

For the love of a Chupa Chup

And thank God for them as well.

I've found the best snack food is a Chupa Chup lollipop. They are only 50
calories and take at least 20 minutes to get through, so your brain and
stomach have time to talk AND they satisfy any sweet tooth. I allow myself
one a day........usually dinner at night to remind myself that I don't have to
go without.